I was craving a run yesterday.
All day long all I could think about was how much my body was telling me that I needed to get out and go for a run. But I wanted to drop in my -recently back from India- teacher's yoga class. She and her classes are amazing and now that she's back from India I want to squeeze every ounce of knowledge she brought back with her. So that was non-negotiable. I had to go to her class.
I thought it would be too much to go for a run and then still go to the yoga class but...eh...I just went with it.
Anyways it was not more than a 45-minute run. Right?
I thought the newly updated play-list would keep me entertained as well as focused throughout this short period of time.
Ehm...Not so much.
My head was all over the place. Maybe my thoughts were following my pace towards a totally unstable universe.
I know I've said I want to run with a time oriented mindset so I won't stress myself out but man oh man old habits are hard to kill.
Maybe it's not the mindset...maybe it's me!
As I was running I thought back of the first times I went out for a run.
It was while I was living in France. The cutest little trail next to a river was my running track. As I started to look back I remembered the feelings and the sensations of each run.
They might not even be called runs. I went out. Sometimes I ran, sometimes I walked, sometimes I ran-walked-ran-walked-walked.
Everything was so new to me. France, the trail, the river, my body doing any kind of physical activity. So I didn't have high expectations because it was all about exploring.
I want that feeling back.
I guess I'm not just figuring out my gait and foot strike but also my running motivation.
And you know what?...I'm cool with that...I'm up for it.
Does that mean I won't be a race runner? Could I be happy with "just" running every other day with no distance, no pace in mind?
What do I find in running that fills my heart and clears my mind? Is it goal setting? where do I draw the line between goal setting and obsessing?
Yesterday's run came with more questions asked than answered.
And yoga after running. Best idea ever.
Clearly I was a little bit more tired than I would've wanted to but I am so glad I didn't miss it. The class was about alignment through relaxing. Need I say more?
A great class, a great lesson.
Namaste everyone!
